It's Working!!

The experiment is working! So I'm going to continue it. I said I would do it for two weeks. Well, let's do it even longer. I want to see how great this can really be. I guess the key in this experiment is believing. And I'm believing. I want to believe. Why not?

I used to be so shy. So timid, so insecure. I'm done with that. Why can't I think I'm a bomb person? Why can't I think well of myself? I guess I'm working on my self-esteem. But it's amazing to see the powerful and lasting effects of one's esteem. To see the effect it has on one's life. I've been working on this issue my whole life. It has been one of my personal struggles, challenges if you will. But all the hard work is paying off. And it's such a sweet success.

The faith is growing more and more - and replacing the doubts that still rise up in my mind. I have a soulmate. I know it. Everything in my body knows it. I'm being pulled towards him. And he is being pulled towards me. Everything will happen at the exact right moment. Nothing I can do to change that. The universe is guiding me.

I'm beginning to visualize him. As Jeff, one of my angels from the other night, told me - have a vision of who he is - on the outside and on the inside. And this way when you meet him - you'll now. Hmm, so is this a case of love at first sight? I don't know.

So here we go:
He is tall, has dark hair, and is lean and muscular. I can still wear heels and he's taller than me. He is athletic. I'm athletic. Can't be with someone who doesn't care about his body and have those similar values about exercising and its benefits on one's health. But more important he is genuine, kind, intelligent, educated. He is funny, outgoing. Even that sounds pretty generic. He is close with his family, but not a mama's boy. He is a real man. Still believes in chivalry. He's going to want to take care of me. He is going to be my man and I his woman. My prince and I his princess. We're going to be best friends. He's going to have a spiritual side to him also. We're going to travel the world and have babies. We're going to create a life together. But we're complete before we meet. We're fulfilled in our lives. We don't need each other. But we love each other and want each other. Our souls are meant to be together. And nothing in the world can keep us apart.

Another thing Jeff said - is that I could have already met him - it's just that neither of us were ready for each other. Hmmm... have I met you yet?