Mad About Love & Men

This morning I woke up and looked at my ever so loyal tabbie. He does make life better. He loves me unconditionally. Oh, is there a man out there who will do the same? I sat down to the computer, my internet was slow, so I started in my journal. And I noticed I was mad. Mad at men. I just don't get them. Well, to be truthful, I was mad at one particular one. I won't name names of course. Considering that so few people on the planet know me - no one will be able to figure out who I'm talking about. Save for the few people closest to me. And with them, I share my heart.

I suppose I'm a pretty normal individual. Looking for love. Who isn't? As much as I say I'm fine being single, of course I long for love. I'm learning to be happy single. To being happy on my own. And it's quite liberating, quite empowering, if you will. I like that I can depend on myself to get things done. That I don't need someone to help me. Don't get me wrong - it's nice when you can have a man to do certain things for you. Oh and let's get one thing clear - I am kind of old fashioned. Not conservative - maybe not totally. And I'm not talking politically either. I mean I love it when a man still believes in chivalry. How romantic is that?

Back to being mad at this particular guy. Oh he kills me with his nonchalant attitude. When I know that's not how he feels. He tries to play it cool, yet I know deep down, he's falling for me. But he's too afraid to admit it. Well, I feel like I've disclosed too much already. So let's leave it at that.

But I can't help but wonder why as a young girl, I was fooled into believing all those fairy tales about the knight in shining armor. I haven't come across him yet. I suppose that's what I'm dealing with now -- the repercussions of a belief in a fairy tale that only exists in books. I'm coming to terms with the fact that life is not like a fairy tale. And perhaps I'm behind my counterparts, my peers, in this respect. I'm naive, if you will. But be ashamed of that I no longer will. My quote for today is: To thine own self, be true.